The Lyricist

Sometimes when I'm lonely,
I get depressed,
And sometimes
I'm just feeling kind of stressed,
And I drink away my sorrows,
And hope for better tomorrows,
And I don't know
What I'm s'posed to say.
I go through all this pain;
Don't know what's left to gain.
That don't matter,
I'm gonna be okay.
...
Man I've walked a lonely road,
Carryin' this heavy load,
Where all eyes are now on me,
It's the burden that will set me free.
So many good things to do,
Trying to help people who
Have their backs against the wall;
Gotta pick 'em up before they fall,
But it causes so much stress,
Why does it feel my life's a mess?
So much struggle, so much pain,
It makes me feel like I'm insane.
There is nowhere left to hide,
So many nights I have cried.
Never got a helping hand,
Always feel like nothing, and
...
Sometimes I need stitches
To mend my broken heart,
But sometimes,
I don't know where to start,
And I drink away my sorrows,
And hope for better tomorrows,
And I don't know
What I'm s'posed to say.
I go through all this pain;
Don't know what's left to gain.
That don't matter,
I'm gonna be okay.
...
Been by myself all these years,
Trying to hide all these tears,
Yet still, on a daily basis,
I'm reminded that I can't face this
Alone and/or by myself
I know that no kind of wealth
Could ever break my sadness.
I'm done with all this madness.
I've always wanted to be
Someone else, but never me.
The thing that made it the worst,
I felt like I was a curse.
Anyway, today's not that bad,
I don't want any of that
To turn me into a nut.
I'm trying to help people, but
...
Sometimes I lose all sight
Of what's right in front of me,
And I don't know
What I'm s'posed to see,
And I drink away my sorrows,
And hope for better tomorrows,
And I don't know
What I'm s'posed to say.
I go through all this pain;
Don't know what's left to gain.
That don't matter,
I'm gonna be okay.
My heart is constricted,
My soul has evicted,
And I don't know what else to do.
My brain has exploded,
Emotions corroded,
I think it's time to renew.
...
You know what?
I never thought I'd make the cut,
But look at me now,
How far I've come and how.
I'm so thankful for all I'm given.
You've made my life worth livin'.
Even though I've lived a hard life,
Been stabbed in the back with a knife,
In the end, it made me stronger,
I live in regret no longer.
Even though some people are mean,
And some are very obscene,
I've seen the beautiful light,
And I know what's truly right.
So you can try and put me down,
But I promise I won't frown.
You can go and try to diss me,
But in the end, you'll miss me.
...
Sometimes I just sit down,
And take a look at my past,
And I realize,
Man, it went by fast.
Goodbye drinkin' away my sorrows,
I'm gettin' better tomorrows,
And I know exactly what to say.
I've gotten rid of the pain,
There's so much left I can gain.
All I know is, I'm gonna be okay.
All I know is, I'm gonna be okay.

You jest,
Always putting
Emotions to the test.
Caress
Me one day,
Then push me away the next.
I'm stressed.
Always placed under
The constant duress
Of loneliness (loneliness.)
I'm blessed
With my gift,
But It's cursed like the rest.
A mess,
That's what I am,
Pretending I'm at my best
A pest
Constantly eating at
The thing in my chest.
Distress
Is filling me;
I'd a never have guessed
That you would make me choose:
Give up my art or you're leaving,
Between the person I love
And my reason for breathing;
Either way, I stand to lose
A fraction of my being.
Love still has a definition,
But no longer a meaning.
I understand you're upset
That I never have time.
I've always got my mind set
On my next biggest rhyme,
And so my biggest regret
Is that I didn't give more,
But i guess none of that
Matters anymore, so...
...
Now you're gone
And I'm alone.
I can't delete you
From my phone.
I don't know what to do. (Without you...)
Every time
I close my eyes
I see your face
I want to cry
Can't help but think of you tonight!
I let you walk all over me.
I never let them see
My mind filled with distortions.
I feel like a doormat
With emotions.
...
I wish that I could yell you
That you'd always come first,
But the thing about rap
Is that my gift is a curse.
You said that all I cared about
Was your body and purse,
But I'm the only guy
Who didn't fall in love with your looks,
first...
But I guess that's on me.
Mr. Still Too Gullible
Just can't see
That he's walking blindly
Through misery.
He's abandoned ship
And based on his trajectory,
He's diving deep
Into a sea of emotion
Oblivious to all the other
Fish in the ocean.
Delirious
Thanks to this demeaning devotion
And he doesn't even know the risks
He's set in motion.
Now look at the man,
All that's left is a husk
Of everything he planned,
Of what he is, or he was.
I guess you know my answer
Since I'm writing this, so
If you ever change your mind,
Still got your name on my phone.
...
Now you're gone
And I'm alone.
I can't delete you
From my phone.
I don't know what to do. (Without you...)
Every time
I close my eyes
I see your face
I want to cry
Can't help but think of you tonight!
I let you walk all over me.
I never let them see
My mind filled with distortions.
I feel like a doormat
With emotions.

Lately I've been searching
Through the murky ocean of my thoughts.
What's the commotion?
Curtain closes, and I'm in the dark
With my emotions
Working to get out,
And so they claw.
My hand is frozen,
And so the passion begins to thaw.
He's so determined.
Almost certain he won't get his shot,
Cus they don't know him.
Everybody thinks that he's too soft.
He's gonna show them
Why you shouldn't doubt an underdog.
Why was he chosen?
...
If I had a dollar
For every bad decision I've made,
I wouldn't bother
Succeeding, I'd already be paid,
But since I'm not I
Got to pour my heart on the page.
It's my destiny!
Haters love to gossip,
But they only feed the fuel to the flames.
It's not a problem,
Getting burned is just a rule of the game.
if you're not up to
Fight the monsters that all live in your brain,
Then Whoooo's gonna know your name?
...
Always feeling hollow,
He finds a way to bottle up his rage.
The monster swallows
Every bleeding heart that's in it's wake.
And now they follow.
When he was deep in sorrow,
Where we're they?
They sat and dawdled,
And so he let it out of the cage.
There's no tomorrow.
And so I'm holding on to today.
Our time is borrowed.
The pressure makes it hard to be great.
I'll reach the top though.
Never count me out, big mistake.
This is my motto.
...
Providence and honor
Only come to those who rise from the grave.
Kill the imposter,
Be reborn, and take control of the stage.
Rise from the squalor,
Find your audience, and put on a play.
You'll find a way!
Started from the bottom,
And a few times I looked back on my way
Up to the top. I
See my past for what it made me today.
So face the karma.
If you're last to learn from all ya mistakes,
Then Whoooo's gonna know ya?
If I had a dollar
For every bad decision I've made,
I wouldn't bother
Succeeding, I'd already be paid,
But since I'm not I
Got to pour my heart on the page.
It's my destiny!
Haters love to gossip,
But they only feed the fuel to the flames.
It's not a problem,
Getting burned is just a rule of the game.
if you're not up to
Fight the monsters that all live in your brain,
Then Whoooo's gonna know your name?

Baby do you love me?
Cuz I feel something
When I gaze into your stare.
If I were missing
then would you miss me?
Would you be wishing I was there?
Chorus: [Oh baby let me love you
Like we used to do
Back when we only had each other
And the covers too.
There could be nobody other,
I'm too used to you.
So baby let me love you
Like we used to do.]
I have my moments
When I lose focus,
But when I look into your eyes,
I can see clearly.
And when you're near me,
Baby I feel like I'm alive!
So move your body, no more thinkin'.
Life passes in a blink and
I've only got the one,
So I'll spend it with you.
It's our time, this is our moment.
Oh I can barely hold it!
There's nothing I love more than
being loved by you.
Chorus: [Oh baby let me love you
Like we used to do
Back when we only had each other
And the covers too.
There could be nobody other,
I'm too used to you.
So baby let me love you
Like we used to do.] ×2
So baby let me love you
Like we used to do.

I get on stage,
And I feel this pain in my chest.
Try to engage,
But I keep losing my breath.
Can't lose it yet,
I've got to finish my set.
I've got these people counting on me,
Imma give them my best!
...My legs shake
As I pace through the stage fright.
They say my name,
And my brain starts to race, right?
...What if they hate the way I engage mics?
What if they don't? Could I keep up the pace? Right...
Called a producer, no name.
He didn't think I could take it.
"There's too much flame in the game,
If you afraid, you won't make it."
It fired static through my attic,
Shot my heart to the basement.
Now I've had it,
And I'm spazzing on the stage while I'm shaken!
Heart rate's going up,
But through the shakes I'm committed.
I'm afraid, but I'm not afraid to admit it.
I'm in it! What do y'all think? Am I timid?
Either way, in the end, I can say that I did it.
And so I trudged and I struggled,
Got through the drugs and the troubles,
Growing stubble on my face,
That's when I pace and I stumble.
I make mistakes and I'm humbled.
When in the wake of the rubble,
I wait and hesitate until I break and I crumble.
What if my voice is shaky?
What if they hate me?
I'm pacing in my head,
And now my heart's going crazy.
I put on a face and play
Like the haters don't phase me,
But no matter what they say,
I'll be chasing the same dream.
And I just want to make a living
Out of living my best one.
Use what I'm given,
Get my mama to rest some.
Get a check that'll get all my debts done,
And my dad's so we won't have to stress none.
What I'm saying is I got what it takes.
I'm on a race to my fate every day.
You can't be great if you don't make mistakes,
And you can't be brave without being afraid.

I woke up again today.
Now everything's blurry.
Remember a bottle of pills,
and a heart full of worries.
I'm unworthy.
To the people who heard me,
I wish that I could tell them
They don't deserve me.
I wish that I could
Try and apologize
For all of my broken ties,
Lies, and alibis.
I wish that I could rise
Like the tides,
But I'm in disguise
As a guy
Who still has hope in his eyes.
I stay up till it's late,
Yet all I feel this pressure
To put a pen onto a page,
Now with every letter,
I'm getting better.
But it's hard to remember
Being put back together.
... I fell apart in the weather.
I don't know whether or not
I'm better or not,
But I know
Never to stop,
I'll get to the top,
Cus you know
I'm not gonna drop.
I'm caught,
And when this opportunity comes,
You know I'm taking my shot!
Look, no one said that
It was gonna be easy,
But believe me,
I'm succeeding.
Doing nothing's beneath me,
And I'll be reaching
For my dreams
Until the day I stop breathing.
I'm only human?
Stop assuming!
Looks can be deceiving.
I want my life back.
I'm scared of facing my demons.
Stop thinking like that!
You'll be stuck down on your knees and
Begging and pleading,
Thinking you'll never be anything, and
Every dream you ever had
Will float away with the breeze,
And you're gonna wake up one day
With your whole life behind you,
And every time you see a mirror,
It's gonna remind you
That you couldn't find you,
And now you're losing your mind too,
And you'll be thinking man,
What did I do?
As time moves on and passes by,
The guy who once had everything in his eyes,
Despite he was never even
Willing to try,
Despised the life
For which he wasn't willing to die,
But not I.
I'm gonna rise
Because the people around me
Give me the strength to make the sound
That's breaking down all my boundaries.
It's how I found me.
I'll never let them tell me they're better.
I can break, but those who love me
Put me right back together!
I had to cast a broken past
Because I know where my heart is.
I'd walk a path of broken glass
Before I say I don't got it.
I'll scream and shout till I get out,
I'll get there, I'm a smart kid,
And when in doubt,
I'll think about where I started.